When The Soul Suffers
It was early in the morning . A cold breeze was touching softly the cheeks
of those shy roses hiding there in the garden . The sun sent its beams to
that room . It was a large room well-furnished . It catches your sight that
red carpet designed on a Persian style . He was laying on his bed and
next to him a small table that holds different kinds of medicines .
The beam of the sun glared on his face to wake him up . He opened his
eyes to see her sitting next to him . Leaning her head back on the couch .
She seemed quiet and calm , only the morning breeze was moving the
curls of her brown hair .
He didn’t want to wake her up . She looked tired and weary as she spent
the whole night awake next to him while he was asleep .
They have been married for one year. It passed quickly carrying with it
beautiful moments .
He looked at her face intensely and remembered how this face was full of
life. He recalled the day when the doctor told him that he got a liver
cancer and his case is hopeless .
He got shocked , but he has no choice this is God’s will . He can’t forget
her tears when he told her the news , she went in a heavy cry .
She promised to be beside him and devote all her time and effort for his
sake.
Her love made her a brave women who can do anything to save her
husband.
We never believe in miracles , but love can prove the reverse . We can
sacrifice anything even if we had to lose our lives .
He always feels guilty toward this poor wife . It is not her fault to live with a
man who will die sooner or later.
He got bored of laying on this bed . He thought it would be a good idea
to take a short walk out side in the garden.
He got up quietly , he was careful not to wake her up .
He reached the garden , it was quiet a long time he didn’t leave his bed.
He was imprisoned in that room as he felt solidity in his bones .
He sat on his favorite place . It was an old wooden chair from his grandpa
.
He is always linked to this peace of wood . He took a deep sigh as he sat
on the chair. He started cuddling his memories when he was young . One
day he said to his grandpa in a childish voice “ I want to be a strong
man like you grandpa.”
He took a look at this gaunt body which has no sign of life . He can see
cancer spreading all over his body , and the remnant of the injections on
his hands . He feels the pain when ever he looks at them .
He lift up his head and he saw her looking at him with her brown eyes .
There was a flash of fear in them. He felt refreshed as he looked at those
magical eyes . He was drowned with his fear and they came to carry him
to the save shore .
He knew from her eyes that she is worried about him , he doesn’t need to
ask. He knows very well the secret language of those eyes.
“ I’m fine , don’t worry.” He assured her with an exhausted voice .
She said nothing , she respond only with an innocent smile .
Sometimes words fail to reveal the true feelings inside our hearts . It
appears on our faces either by a smile or a frown .
He feels sorry for her . She doesn’t deserve this pain .
He wanted to give her a happy life , but he couldn’t . He is nothing but a
dead man .
The most painful thing that torn the heart , is tormenting whom we do love
.
“ The doctor says that you’re doing well .” She said with a tender voice .
“ Yah, I’ve been hearing this many times .” He said with a bitter tone .
She knows the truth about his health. He has no choice to live more . He
will give up the struggle and pass away anytime.
We never accept the truth when it reveals bitter moments . Even if we
had to lie at ourselves and others .
She was looking at his pale face and couldn’t bear his heartrending
words . He turned to see those brown eyes full of tears , they’re
different . He can tolerate the of pain of the disease , but not the pain of
her tears.
When a body suffers , it can be alleviated with medicines . But when pain
reaches the soul , it is harder .
They sat there together as they usually do . With hearts full of faith in God
.
Looking for a new hope in this life .
